Taking it day by day

Hey, first time poster here. (Reposting due to mod instructions)

I am a survivor of a narcissist and the struggles of it daily suck. I feel so used and abused from the amount of years I put into the relationship. I don't really know how else to put it, and this is honestly the first time I have done something like this on a social platform.

I didn't know during the time they were a covert narcissist until afterwards. My therapist has been extremely helpful during the sessions, however, the quiet nights and overall loneliness is what keeps me up and racing with thoughts. Maybe I deserve this? I don't know. Truth is I am not sure what I have actually done to deserve this.

I'm just venting, so thank you for allowing me to and I hope you have a good rest of the day.