Im hit my self

From 2023 to 2025 I've had horrendous anxiety/anger problems that lead me into the awful habit of hitting myself. Id ruminate about bullshit leading to explosive fits of rage followed by me hitting the back of my head repeatedly. Id even smack my self in the middle of the night. I've stopped since last December and have thankfully gotten considerably better at regulating my emotions. As a matter of fact this is the best I've felt in years, at least until I've learned of cte. I'm genuinely concerned about any unforseen consequences that may come for me. I'm worried that all of the time I've spent at fixing myself was for nothing. I know symptoms don't show up until 8 to 10 years form the initial trauma (I've got until the 2030s until I know). I hate my self for sabotaging my own health. Id like to think my new found sense of control would last my life time.