Friend … oh how I’ve missed you … S

God, I just knew you met some amazing girl and could not be my friend any longer … I don’t think I could watch anyways it would absolutely kill me and I would hate her. I guess that’s how dumbass felt about u know who … but wait she was married lol… nah that’s just ghetto wanting attention shit with a side of trauma bonding … anyways i can’t help but compare you to every single person in my life… weird Ive even noticed it. I can’t even go one day without a thought about u it’s stupid as shit. I feel crazy bc I’ve never been like this with anyone man like I could catch the cycle here but nah im flabbergasted at you … your handsome face that no one else is similar to … your smile my God I want to make u smile … dammit im doomed to never have that with someone … actually being absolutely crazy about … u have my adoration even ehrn im dam mad at you for not being more open to me … it felt … rejection from u … knowing how I didn’t even have a choice is what pissed me the fuck off man no choice to just yea nah someone better … no I couldn’t get that bc I compare them all to ya.. this sucks ass but im glad and so thankful your my friend … how close I get to your front porch who knows maybe knock on the door snd u will be gone with another hussey anyways … just glad to know u care about me I’ll take that and be fine. One day I’ll move on or dam be obsessed over u forever … probably not forever i mean there has to be a guy out there who gives me that electricity … for now I’ll hang back and adore u while I get hit on by dam every single guy our there but …. The only one I want attention from. The only one who can touch me and actually make me shake inside … the one who had me before I had a chance to think. Not out of need but want absolutely adoration of wanting your voice your hands u as my person my protector my steady hand that is smart as shit. What am I suppose to do now … except perform … for you… every move every note as to u know why I post what I post … I felt like really dam im getting ran over might as well as begin the war with blood on my hands with this shy-sty ghetto pinay hoe … and coward .. i mean I don’t think they smart enough to read it through haha…. If so they sure as hell can’t say shit to me about it. It’s fun and entertaining for myself tho… chess 🥲🤪🥰 always Mr. Dam im the village idiot who is sitting here ready to surrender to no one but one who rejected me and even after that I still can’t get passed his ass. Wtf is wrong with me makes no sense i know I never have