vent shit post (lmfao)

while i'm smoking kinda in a depression state 50/50 because i didnt take my meds (when i take for 4 days straight i start to think "well i'm better now whats the point of taking them ,it won't hurt" feels like i got hit by a bus mentality/physicly so that's today ) i'm slowly realizing how i'm losing friends, and it's my fault for being so distant and to myself- and telling myself "well the most scessfull in life don't have friends" for comfort, i'm relizings that i only have myself and God(jesus my lord and savior) in my life at the end of the day .. i have my mom but she's trying to keep herself up to date - and fuck ... well i'm tired of typing now later 😂(holding on about to roll one)