I don’t know.

I don’t know, it’s my first Reddit… anything… but I am feeling so so completely deflated.

I am currently on 20mg lexapro and 20mg buspirone (I’m still adjusting my dosage I think because I’m still so anxious) for anxiety/depression. I can take up to 60mg of Propranolol as needed. I have therapy weekly. I also have been on 5mg Methimazole for my hyperthyroidism for the past 2 months. After a month of 5mg Methimazole, my thyroid blood work numbers are back to the normal range. Which is great……. But I still feel absolutely miserable.

I get so tired, overwhelmed, and worked up so so easily. I am resting a lot. All (and any) stress, emotional instability, and physical weakness/feeling a little sick constantly have triggered…. All my skin issues like perioral dermatitis, eczema, and cold sores. All at once. I just want to I don’t even know if I want to cry honestly. I just want to stare blank and not feel. I am so sad. I’m sick of trying to hard for my condition and yet I’m sick because maybe I’m trying too hard. I don’t know.