My abusive father just crushed me, even though I built the house we live in.

Yesterday, we got into a screaming match. The whole thing started because he asked me to help him fix his phone. I tried several approaches, but it still wouldn't work. I told him I couldn't get it fixed. Then he yelled at me to get out of the house.

That made me snap. How dare he say that? I paid for this house to be built, and I also footed all the renovation costs two years ago. He's a lifelong heavy drinker, and he's been relying on me for support since his forties. How dare he say that?

And he crushed my dream of being a filmmaker.

I only finished high school. But I want to be a director. Since 2009, I've worked on factory assembly lines to save up for a DV camera and support the family, then rounded up anyone I could find to shoot short films.

I hadn't been to a film course or worked on set, so my work was crappy. I turned back to the factories to keep working.

After years, I was ready to shoot my second short film. But on the first day of shooting, my dad had a stroke from years of heavy drinking. I quit the crew and went home to take care of him in the hospital for a month. This drained all the shooting money and left me in debt.

From then on, I needed to save money crazily for his medical care and to support the family(my mom stayed home to take care of him).

I had not much money and time left to put into shooting short films anymore, let alone a feature film.

After more than ten years, he’s recovered well by now. At least he can take care of himself. But he’s still got a terrible temper. Yesterday I refused to get out, and he even called me useless, said I don’t make enough money, no one is willing to marry me, and that I’m an embarrassment to him.

I’ve got nothing to say to him.  I am drained and I hope he rots in the miserable reality he created.

By the way, I'm from rural China.