19M - I’m serious about making longterm friends

Please read the post and don’t skim it. This is not a casual post; you will actually have to think about it. I really care about making friends, which is why my post is long. I need very serious people who won’t ghost for literally any reason. I am being honest about my flaws because it is important; I would rather you know these things about me now than find out about them later. I am boring and uninteresting, but I really try my best not to be dry. I’m not confident; I am actually extremely insecure. I also talk negatively about myself and I’m very pessimistic. I might be overly serious sometimes, and I have autism, depression, and social anxiety. I’m also not good at small talk, and nothing fun is going on in my life. I know how a conversation works and I will put effort into talking to you, but I am bad at carrying a conversation. I can’t promise that I’ll be fun to talk to, but I am trying. I am just warning you about my lack of skills.

I find texting very exhausting. I don’t want to text for days or even hours just to “get to know” someone before we can actually call. I want our first conversation to be on a call. If you are too shy to call early on, we won’t be a good match. I want to voice call daily; my time zone is EST, and I’m a night owl. I don’t view calling as a big deal, and I need people who feel the same way. If you’re someone who’s sensitive, easily offended, or impulsive, then it won’t work out.

I have a really hard time dealing with people leaving. If we start talking, I get attached very quickly. I genuinely cannot handle it if you just disappear or change your mind later. I need a patient who is actually serious about sticking around for the long term. If you aren’t 100% sure you can commit to that, please don’t message me. If you decide to reach out, please don’t just send a ‘Hi’. I’m not asking for a massive introduction, but just let me know you actually read this post and genuinely want to be friends. I want a real friendship; it’s very important to me. I don’t want to talk to someone who’s just bored and wants entertainment.

I want to be clear about the kind of person I am looking for because I want to save us both time. I am looking for someone whose personality and struggles are fundamentally similar to my own. I’m not looking for someone who just relates to feeling lonely; I’m looking for someone who actually thinks like me. If you read my post and felt like we were polar opposites, please reconsider messaging me, because I’m looking for a genuine, deep connection with someone who can truly understand my perspective. If you don’t feel a natural sense of compatibility with me from reading my post, we likely won’t be a good match for the long term.

I also want to mention that it is okay for us to disagree in a friendship, even on big things. I know that’s hard to understand for people nowadays because of social media, but that’s what a friendship is to me. I need someone who doesn’t walk away if things get uncomfortable. Cutting off people over disagreements has become way too easy. I value people deeply and I hate how disposable friendships have become. I believe that a real friendship should survive flaws, boredom, and disagreements.

Here are my interests:

• DC Comics

• Movies / Shows / Anime: Watching movies is my favorite thing to do. I also use Letterboxd.

Please be 19+.