Don’t want to go on

Hi guys,

I’ve struggled with mental health issues for 12 years now. Basically, most of my teens and adult life. It has been a struggle for many years. Now, I’m settling into paranoia. I’m convinced that foreign governments want to assassinate me. No matter how much anyone convinces me, I don’t believe them. I’m religious so a part of me believes that I will go to hell if I take my life before this. But maybe I should? Things won’t get better. Ever. I need to die to atone for my sins.