I just need someone to talk to

I don't really know who to talk to but I see this subreddit from time to time in my feed.

I feel like my life is basically finished and I'm only 25. I work a dead end job part time (I struggle with full time work), I earn just about enough to get by living with my parents, all my friends are now moving out, getting married, having kids, and I'm here on like 12k a year feeling pretty worthless after all is said and done. I'm losing my hair which is an entire other thing and affects how i view myself, my love life fell apart years ago after being manipulated and emotionally abused, which I have yet to properly take time and forgive myself for. I'm meant to be going to Japan next year with my friend but I also would rather hold the money to try and secure some form of future but they've been let down so many times I'd feel awful. One of my friends has started talking about me to others, not actually shit talking but just unnecessary comments. I just work, play the same 4 games, and sleep on a cycle and I really just need to talk to someone about it that isn't part of my immediate friend group. Sorry if this kind of post isn't allowed, I just want a conversation