Help with sex life. I have a lot of confusion and questions.

Hi, I’m 29F, I’ve done online sexy fun in the past and enjoyed teasing and making men orgasm. I’m a very weird girl, I am highly sensitive to energy and sometimes people ask me if I’m in psychosis. I’m not, I just see the unseen. Anyways, a lot of these unknown truths have me thinking about sex. I normally just like to play with myself online and not actually swap essence and germs because I’m very sensitive I can get sick, my ph, my body, my mood, my hormones, my period, everything can get all thrown off after having sex, sometimes for months, so that’s why I started doing the online so I could have a sex life. Being watched turns me on. Sex with strangers. Intimacy is really scary. Sometimes I get really insanely horny but I’m scared of giving my sexual energy to a demon, or a man or something like that. I don’t let men eat me out because I heard it’s sex magic and can destiny swap with people from it. I had been dating recently and had been with a few avoidant men, it’s been perfect. I didn’t let them go down on me. Last week, I got incredibly horny like so horny and wet, I thought I was pregnant. I had sex with my neighbor. It was intense and very intimate. He didn’t want to stop and he wants to cuddle and he keeps showing me ways he cares about me. It’s freaking me out. He was going down on me and I orgasmed at least 10 times and he said he is addicted to it. He just keeps playing with me and making me cum and he doesn’t want to stop, but then I get so drained and tired and I don’t have energy to make him cum. Now he wants to have sex everyday and always wants to play with me and I don’t know how to feel about it. Why can’t he just let me give him head and just cum so he doesn’t have to have blue balls for days. And should I keep doing it? I haven’t really gotten sick like I normally do. We seem to be very compatible but I don’t know if I can keep up. I came so much I was delirious and I just go to sleep. 😩😩😩😩 I’m not sure if I should feel bad and try to get him off too or if this is some sort of demonic situation and maybe I should just focus on myself. this is just too much for me to process. I’m worried I could be ruining my life by orgasming so much and also worried about dating and serious relationships. Worried about what’s “right” and what’s “wrong” since I’m so energetically in tune, I practice ancient rituals. Our sexual energy is our power. It feels good in the moment but maybe there are consequences down the road. Maybe I’m draining myself of my luck and prosperity. What is wrong with me and am I valid?