Rats 🐀 (Am I technically one?)

So I don’t ever really go into a raid with the intentions of gaining trust then killing someone. If I plan to kill, mainly after being ratted so many times in a row, I kill shamelessly and very upfront. I know it’s not right but I know we all get fed up eventually. But thats not the point…

I just went into a Harvester Raid, and I was with 3 other guys. All of us nervous because of the rat infestation. But we were all actively attacking the Queen. Then a rat ziplined up and started attacking us. I got away, but heard him kill the rest. I went back to help kill the rat and eventually did so. Though the other 2 were already dead and one crawled away after I told him I didn’t have a defib. I gladly looted the rat, but also happily took the loot of his other two victims. I feel bad but this isnt the only time I have done so. Subconsciously I wanted him to kill the rest and I kill the rat to get all the goodies…

Am I a rat too???