I wanna wear heels... but I am 187cm

Hi! I am 187, 24F.
I keep seeing platform heels EVERYWHERE and I would LOVE to wear them because they look amazing. But I am 187 and am already sticking out everywhere.
I also always get comments about how tall I am and I am scared that if I wear heels itll be even worse.
Once I wore like very small heels (no higher than 5cm) and my students were already shocked😭
Anyone have any tips on how to gain confidence in wearing heels, I wont wear them to work cause its not practical, but with friends or days out or whatever... I would love to.
Any advice is welcome!