What do I even do with myself

I need help with what I do with myself now. I f19 and my ex M20 recently broke up after three years together. It was mutual and he’s a really great guy we just fought so much and we’re both unhappy, I really wanted to live together and he did not. I live in a pretty expensive state so affording a apartment alone isn’t an option. I still live with my parents, but I’m debating about moving about 30 hrs away from home to the coast. I have some family there and the living alone would be affordable. Am I overreacting? Should I do it? For a year? I really wanted to eventually get back with this man but right now I am miserable missing him. I want to live alone so bad!