I feel like I’m coming apart at the seams from stress and it’s actually not related to being on the spectrum but everyone’s acting like it is

Literally the thing that would fix 95% of my problems IMMEDIATELY would be getting a second job to alleviate a lot of the financial pressure and I just literally cannot get it to happen. It’s insane. It’s actually insane what the employment landscape is like and it’s doubly insane how everybody acts like there’s something deeply wrong with me for being so constantly stressed about it. Like I’m ungrateful (what?) or in some way unhinged for wanting to pick up more work so I can live comfortably. Literally people act like I’m defective for articulating this desire and it’s like are you all actually okay?

Severe financial stress is a PRETTY neurotypical thing and we don’t all need to clutch our pearls and be concerned that people experiencing it are some freakshow monsters for crashing out about it. Not everything is a disorder. Some things are a PRETTY REASONABLE response to prolonged exposure to stress.

I’m so sick of how the hiring landscape is basically an elaborate humiliation ritual. And I know some people are just refusing to participate in it but I am actually going out there and debasing myself because I actually want the work and it’s still not yielding any results. And when I crashout about it people either (1) act like it’s a disproportionate reaction (it’s not besties, it’s not), or (2) like I’m just failing to be grateful for what I have. I AM GRATEFUL.

JUST

HIRE

ME

PLEASE

AND

THANK

YOU.