i’m so lonely

im so alone. i have no close friends, only people im acquainted with who never reach out. every time i text someone i feel like im bothering them and distracting them from living their life. i never go anywhere and have spent most of the summer sitting alone in my house, wondering what’s even the point. i have nobody to talk to about anything, and its so hard to just sit in silence and have nobody to tell about this feeling, it makes me feel like im trapped. it just gets so bad to the point when i can’t even look at people doing anything together. i just want someone to hang out with, do mundane tasks with, to talk to. it’s so hard to see everyone else finding their people, people who care about them and i’m just stuck inside. summer is probably the worst time of the year. every year i tell myself it’s gonna be different, i’ve got friends now, but when summer eventually rolls around they all disappear. i don’t know what to do anymore.