i hate my parents for having me and giving me terrible genes

there’s a laundry list of reasons to hate them but ultimately I just hate them for fucking having me. they genuinely cursed me with the worst genetics that are humanly possible. i’m an almost 26 year old female and im more insecure than ive ever been. i’ve recently lost a decent amount of weight but its not like it matters cause no matter what my shape fucking sucks. i have huge saggy boobs with massive areolas and they’re so wide apart i can’t even push them together in any bra to look nice and i have to wait more years to have surgery. i have so much fucking body hair it’s actually ridiculous and it’s coarse and i get ingrown hairs no matter what the fuck i do. i have dark features but pale fucking skin so i look dumb as fuck and ugly. my nose is huge. my hair is thinner than it was when i was younger but my body hair has gotten more stubborn. i have pcos but my blood work is completely normal so my fucking hair just sucks. i have ugly strawberry legs and broad shoulders and bulky legs and arms and i have muscle but its not defined so i look fat and ugly and my hips are narrow and my ass looks like a man’s ass and i’m just fucking sick of this shit. i want to look like a normal fucking woman. and don’t give me the all shapes and sizes bullshit. i see plenty of normal women on a daily fucking basis and i just don’t fit into the category of normal and it genuinely makes me fucking suicidal. i hate living like this. being ugly and abnormal is a fucking curse and i wish i was never born. i genuinely can’t just have ONE THING about me that’s normal. I can’t even orgasm the correct way with my legs apart i have to fucking tense them with my legs straight out and i’ve never cum with a partner because i’m too in my head and it’s just fucking stupid. literally everything about me is wrong, every fucking way i’m wired is completely and utterly wrong and fucked up and i don’t even know what to do anymore.