Update: Holding boundaries, fighting resentment, and trying not to hate

First off, I just want to say thank you to everyone who commented on my last post. I didn’t expect that much support, and reading your responses honestly helped me more than you know.

I wanted to share a small update.

I’ve kept the boundary I talked about — communication strictly about the kids. It hasn’t been easy. When I reinforced it, the reaction I got back hurt more than I expected. Things got twisted, and that part still stings.

What I’m noticing now isn’t chaos or constant conflict. It’s resentment. Not just toward her, but toward the whole situation. Some days I feel stuck processing something I didn’t even cause, while she seems to have moved on and is living her life like it’s normal.

That’s the part that gets to me.

I don’t want this to turn into hate. I don’t want to become bitter over something that already cost me enough. I have made progress — we barely have contact, I’m more stable than I was — but some days the energy just drains out of me thinking about it.

I guess healing isn’t linear. Just being honest about where I’m at.