scared to get a job

hi i am 20F and i am genuinely terrified of the idea of getting a job let even apply to get one. (i already did in the past and no one called me back so i feel even worse about it)

the thing is that i have no choice because i dropped out of uni and my family is in debt.

i literally am petrified i don’t know how to get myself to do that it feels embarrassing i cant believe people just do it casually.

and if after i apply i get the job, ill still be scared because i’ll have to go there and what ? be around humans, interact with them and embarrass myself all day ? learn by having people yelling at me ? they for sure will do that because when i panic / get anxious i act VERY slow and stupid .. i feel like there’s no issues ..

i hope some people can relate and help me if they grew out of this ! thank you for reading me :’)