How i fell that, i can control everything , Faith in my abilities and that I am God

I know am the god

But the things i did manifest was small to mee , some of them r weird,

But i wanna totally believe from the deepest part of my heart

I AM THE GOD

AND I CAN DO ANYTHING AND I CAN CHANGE AND CONTROL EVERYTHING,

To be honest i meditation to fell this

After 2 days

, i fell i have no desire

And all me things that make me mad don't make me anymore

I got some wisdoms

And the thing i want i don't fell sad if i don't have it anymore more

Alot of feelings

Such as contentment and letting go

But i still Fell am not believe that am the god and i can do anything,

I fell like Limited

I don't wanna fell limited anymore

That feeling is sad ,

And inability , even if i don't wanna anything anymore

I feel that my way of thinking has become like that of a devout, secluded monk.

And it's great it's not my first time

But even the monk fell strong bc he know the god by side him

But i fell some of weakness in my soul ,

Not even believe that , i know it's true

But my heart doesn't believe

I would like to hear from anyone who has been through this experience. What did you do in that feeling?