I need guidance

I know I have to go to the Bible for times like this, but I wondering about some things…

I believe 100% in Jesus, God, Holy Spirit, the Bible .

I have a lot of issues when it comes to self-control, especially with lust whenever I’m tempted I just given I don’t even try and fight it properly. Correction, not fight flee from it.

So I know to study that the Holy Spirit is what Teacher see the word of God and I’ve asked for the Holy Spirit to come into my heart and I believe I have it but

Why am I not changing like, the disciples when they receive the Holy Spirit they changed like their heart posture changed .

Like why are the fruits of Holy Spirit not manifested in me like am I meant to do the work in the transformative process, or is it like a natural process? The closer you get to God the more you become like him.

I just feel like I’m failing… I wonder if I’ll go to heaven and be with God in eternity. I do believe in him but I can’t say I’ve changed yet. The verse the Lukewarm ppl always makes me ponder.

But I want to make it work, I want to be close to God.