how one mf changed my social life

guys so my eng is bad so im sorry in advance

bro i wasn't like this a few years ago like i was surrounded by so many people.

i had alot of friends offline and online too lol

anyway that all changed when i met my ex

it was okay at first and then i got too attached

and he didn't really like my friends and was kinda jealous of them

so i pushed most of my friends away (i shouldn't have) and i removed alot of guys from my followers/following

i wanted him to feel secure and loved

and slowly my life revolved around him and only him

i ghosted my day ones and ofc cos i thought why do i need others when i got everything i need infront of me (him ofc ew)

looking back tho, i GENUINELY regret ghosting them

cos they were there for me thru thicc and thin.

they even tried to confront me but no i was too blinded by his love that i gave 0 fucks ab them

and eventually i lost contacts w everyone

anyway but this guy did the complete opposite lol

when he got new friends

he glazed them infront of me and started bragging about the attention he's getting etc

like he started following alot of girls and became popular af

AND BRO I BECAME INSECURE AND LONELY

and i had no one to vent to and he ruined my mental health sm

i lost my shi and became introverted af and lost my communication skills

like i lost everything and we broke up obv

it's been a year

but now im too drained to make friends

i cant keep friendships anymore

so yuh im cooked lol