Hi if anybody reads this please lend me a hand with some advice

im bryant I have multistage ocd and my main problem is my guilt of having ocd and guilt ocd basically it makes me dig up bad past memories of times I was hurting and sad and forces me to feel sad for things i couldn’t control another things is my guilt because my ocd made me watch inappropriate things and I hated every second of it but my ocd controlled me eventually cause of the guilt I thought my soul was ruined and i tried to make me give up on life but I haven’t and went against my ocd but the guilt still stays I was just a kid I was 17 and now I’m just starting to be 18 I just need to know i was just a kid and it wasn’t my fault and that I should keep going I want to keep going I finished therapy and am getting help with ignoring my ocd I just need some support that im a good person and it wasn’t my fault i was abused by my ocd