Don't know what to do?

So I've been doing target archery since I was 9, im 16 rn, shooting compound target, i have a big problem and I don't know what to do.

So I am on the verge of deciding if I should burn this part of my life and childhood and end it or if it's something I can fix and get to love what I used to love.

Also I'm planing to go to the Paralympics in LA (if I manage to get good enough).

But to the point.....I feel frustrated, sad...actually I want to cry while I'm typing this. I don't have the desire to train I know I won't be good if I don't put the numbers in. I don't feel happy when hitting the yellows you know like the inner YAY a 9/10/x, I'm just dead inside like "it's just another arrow, I'll fuck up the next".

Please can anyone give me any advice,.....I'm.....I'm crying, I don't want this to die. 🥺😢