How to move on, please someone comfort me I’m breaking down.

I sent my last voice message when I broke no contact giving my last words and asking how he did what he did to me and it’s been 12 hours no response it’s making me die on the inside. 12 hours is too long, it makes me sick I was crying badly in the voice message he was with me for 4 years we are eachothers first love and his friends are bad influences and he’s changed and become evil and blaming me for everything when it was him, I don’t know where I’m going with this but I’m in pain. I have no friends or social life and he has so I feel trapped before I did the voice message he told me to move on that I’ll forget him soon as if the relationship was nothing? it makes me sick. I can’t sleep or eat at night I dread each day.