Update: (21m) My gf (19f) is upset I won’t dress up as a girl

Here’s previous context to this situation and comments can piece together other posts I’ve made
https://www.reddit.com/r/relationship_advice/s/3eco2X0ZGE

I’ve read everyone’s comments and thank everyone for not sugarcoating this and how she is. It gave me the courage to say something to her. It was a text chain. I wish I could add the screenshots but idk how.

Me: You know, it fucking hurts when u say stuff like that. All I've heard for the past two days is how l've ruined gaming for u, a shit boyfriend, a shit man, not a real man, a pussy, the worst shit u could come up with. I know half of the stuff u don't mean but it's constant bombardment of insults the entire day even though there's times when I'm not to blame and the times that are my fault, u don't tell me what's wrong. It wouldn't feel as bad if u were at least a little sorry for some things but u actual feel better after saying those things to me and that's the part that bothers me.
One thing I'm sorry for is that I'm such a disappointing boyfriend in your eyes.

(She put a thumbs down reaction emoji)

Me: So u actually don't even care

Her: Im not doing this rn
Whats thw point of you sayinh this?
Are you gonna leave me or what

Me: Is that what you really want? I was sharing my thoughts with you.

Her: Okay and im sorry that my honesty is hurting your feelings
I guess ill lie to you from now on

Me: So all of that is true? U really see me that way?

Her: 🤷🏻‍♀️
If you're crying send me a picture

I can see what everyone else was telling me now. I’m sorry for not listening sooner.