I'm really tired

I'm tired. I dont want to do this anymore but i have no choice. I have a family, if i died they would be shattered. God i wish i could die. I fucking wish i could die. Being alive is a torture.

I dont know what to do to survive tonight. Probably going to get high on my anti anxiety meds or something.

I'm tired. I'm so fucking tired. Please make it stop. Please. Please. Please. Please.