Follow up from my "rock bottom" post 2 days ago.

First of all, thanks to everyone that replied with advice and your own experiences. I really appreciate it.

I attended my 1st 'online' AA meeting last night. I need to build up the courage to go to one in person.

But my overall experience was positive. I didn't join in, I don't feel ready for that yet either. But it was nice to hear similar thoughts and feelings. They made me feel slightly less alone in this battle.

I'm planning on joining again this evening.

Thanks to this community I'm finally making steps to acknowledge that I can't carry on doing what I'm doing. It's exhausting and lonely.

Day 2.....IWNDWYT.