Drop your gyaan and help a girlie out

Throwaway account due to obvious reasons.

I (24F) matched with a guy(25M) on a dating app. Cute personality but also very horny. Always and mostly talks about sex but says it is not due to lust but because he is very serious about me and wants me to be his gf/wife. He also talks about romantic gestures like holding hands, talking to each other for hours, living together. Our long-term goals are similar but most of his talk is about f*cking. He said our first time would be on some special occasion and not a random thing tho. It felt as if he enjoys dirty talk like I do.

We exchanged numbers. Made plans to meet (live in different cities). He wanted a staycation to be our first date. Talked about them in detail one night. Exchanged steamy texts. Next morning, he blocks me everywhere.

I reach out to him through some way because of the lack of closure. He responded saying he blocked me everywhere because if he didn't, his emotions over me would increase and it's better we stop it here. I responded by reminding everything he said from the start (he is crazy about me, how we should tell our kids in future about our first date). He didn't reply.

One day later, he called me late at night and said he was sorry and he was afraid to deal with his emotions as he realized he was getting quickly attached to me. He felt scared about what to do if it ends badly due to his past trauma. He said he's ready to have secs with me and it's not out of lust. He said he does not feel like having secs every other girl and he had not felt that way since his breakup a few years ago. He said if we can restart and he would tell his parents about me. I said my trust was broken as he blocked me without a heads up. Still I said we will take it slow and agreed to restart.

2 hours later, he texted me he is sorry and it won't work out and we should be strangers. Wtf. I was devastated.

I had a breakdown with my friend the first time he blocked me but I recovered somewhat soon. But the second time took a toll on me. I don't have much dating experience and I don't know if this is how it is with everybody else.

Pls consider me a friend and give me some adult advice. Ik I'm not in my right senses rn. My rational side would appreciate your advice so much in future.