TW: abusive partner

Ive finally decided to leave my abusive partner and its so hard. He will go from insulting me to this empty husky that refuses to eat and I just cant help but feel awful.

But i cant stay, i just cant.

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Its been like this for over a year and im so broken.

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Ive tried to ask him to remain friends but hes just so sad and wants to end himself but i want him to be okay and ive told him he has time to be happy with someone else.

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Hes completely destroyed me as a person, my belongings, my photos and family souvenirs, but i cant help but feel awful when hes like this. What can I do?

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Also yes i know i should do therapy but i can not afford it at all.