Musings on I AM

Hello everyone, I hope you are well.
During SATS last night, I had a deep realization concerning the I AM reality. That realization was that I actually have no idea what I really am. My existence is an absolute mystery to me. I can look at the history of the body, but I now see it only as a cherished vehicle, and its origins are imaginary. The conscious awareness that is I AM has no history for me to draw upon; it simply is.
It entertains all the stories and explanations I give it, yet its very substratum is an enigma.

After contemplating this for a while, I thought about the Bible and realized that in Genesis, the very first book, the Earth and everything upon it is created—but not the I AM. Man is created, but not the I AM. So I realized that I am a physical manifestation of the very awareness that I AM; that I am the imagined expression of this eternal, all-encompassing Being.

After this, my attention was drawn to the Book of Job and to God speaking to Job from the whirlwind, refusing to justify any of Job's arguments. Instead, He responds with facts about creation—things nobody could possibly know. Neville says this is where man truly encounters, through experience, what was previously known only through tradition.

Tradition is history, and history is an explanation. It's a cushion for the mind when confronting the vastness of life. If I can point to a family tree and say, "This is where I come from," I immediately feel a sense of comfort and security in that knowledge.

I AM is the antithesis of this. It is acknowledging yourself as the center and creator of your whole reality. Many of us bring tradition into the Law of Assumption when we practice it. We want to know the when and the how, when we don't even know the when or the how that brought us into being. We simply have no idea.

Maybe accepting that fact is what many of us need to do. When you say, "I AM this" or "I AM that," allow it to remain a mystery. It's not about understanding—it's about being. Being can't be explained or negotiated with; it can only be experienced.

Surprise yourself.