I have no will to live

I'm not necessarily home jailed. I have a car and can leave the house whenever I want, but

- Both of my parents are emotionally and verbally abusive. Sometimes they even threaten physical abuse.

- I was sexually assaulted by a relative when I was a child.

- I graduated from university a little over a year ago and still haven't been able to find a job, even though I apply almost every day.

- Me and my best friend used to be close, years back, but over time she got busy with her own life. and now she mostly reaches out only when she wants to talk about her own problems.

- I haven't seen my other friends since graduation. They live far away and are always busy, even for a phone call.

- My parents constantly fight and dump all of their problems on me, even though I can't fix any of it.

- They regularly tell me I'll die alone, that I have no life, and that I'm mentally ill. I once had to open up to them about my mental health, and now they sometimes use it against me.

- I only have brothers, no sisters.

- I have PTSD, depression, and anxiety. I was in therapy and on a high dose of antidepressants for two years through my university, but after graduating I lost access. I can't afford therapy now without asking my parents for money, which isn't an option.

- My only real emotional support was my two-year relationship with the person I loved the most, and it ended badly, draining whatever hope and life was left in me.

Sorry for the long post. I don't have anyone to tell these things to.

I have no will to live and I wish I can end it all.