Day 2 of Naltrexone Pill

I’ve been sober barely a month. In and out of jail, rehab, hospitals. I can handle my drugs but NOT my alcohol. In and out of AA meetings since 15. I am 25 female.

Major Urges since July 4th weekend. Took my Naltrexone pill that was prescribed to me and I feel amazing for some reason. I did not get the injection because I am on Klonopin for panic disorder and I didn’t know how it would affect that. Yes I am an addict but Alcohol is my demon.

If you’ve seen A Clockwork Orange I feel like i’ve just gone through the Ludovico Technique treatment. Maybe I’m manic or just really happy. I feel like I have an aversion to alcohol right now. When usually I would be drinking bottles of vodka all throughout the day. Vodka was like my water. When I would get hungover I would just take my benzos to overlap the hangxiety.Now I feel …. good? Why do I feel good? Am I proud of myself for not drinking? Is this a happy pill? Am I manic? Has anyone else felt this way?

Anyways. Thanks for reading. Happy to not be hungover today, like I have been the last 10 years of my life. Some in the hospital and jail as well.