It ended yesterday. It's hurting. I miss her.

My MW sent me a message yesterday and said she can't continue anymore. She said she's moving back to her country and will start a new life there. Her husband is not going to give her a divorce and her family would never let her go for one. Things were uncertain for me too and I really didn't know what am I doing with my life.

She started to give me signs that she's getting over me already but I was still holding on to her because I actually imagined a life together with her.

I spent years with her and a really good time. Our relationship was always super positive and there was literally no toxicity from either side. We never had ANY fights or arguments. But it still ended because even though it was always positive, it was never headed in a single direction and it was doomed to end one day. And whenever I imagined that day it always hurt me. That day was yesterday. I felt devastated. A very big part of my life was gone. Literally my everything.

Now I'm left all alone and I really don't know what do. I have cried a lot. And I really want to message her and ask about her day. But I can't 💔