I am increasingly realizing how these medications have changed the way I think and act. It feels like an awakening.

I stopped years ago, but only now do I realize I was right. I have the clarity needed to look back and observe the progressive cognitive decline that occurred while taking the medication, as well as the gradual recovery that followed.

my decline into 3 phases: 1) emotional destabilization and psychological breakdown; 2) total flattening of emotions and resignation, accompanied by a loss of self-awareness and a decline in mental and physical faculties; 3) chronic pessimism, rejection of life, and withdrawal into a fantasy world.

My five-stage recovery: 1) recovering from the severe physical problems that forced me to stop taking the medication (a very long process lasting a decade); 2) rebound emotional destabilization, I had to quit the drugs abruptly due to the risk of permanent heart damage, so I couldn't taper off; I suffered several crises during the first year, especially in the initial three months, and things felt truly out of control in my brain, as if it were physiologically readjusting; 3) disorientation and the gradual recovery of mental and physical abilities, along with regaining self-awareness (the longest and most important phase); 4) breaking off unhealthy relationships, including with the people who had pushed me into the hands of those abusive psychiatrists; 5) the most difficult part, which is still ongoing: rebuilding my life, getting a job, bringing my personal finances under control, forming new friendships and relationships, rebuilding a social network (the biggest challenge), and fully restoring my self-esteem.

NOW I AM CERTAIN: THEY ARE WHAT CREATE PEOPLE SUFFERING FROM MENTAL DISORDERS. THESE ARE CONDITIONS INDUCED BY PSYCHIATRIC DRUGS, RECREATIONAL DRUGS, OR BOTH.

You end up there because you have been unlucky in life and have suffered abuse. They hide your story, rewrite it, blame and stigmatize you, damage you cognitively and emotionally, and destabilize you by placing you in situations that ruin your reputation; they cause you to lose awareness of yourself and your life, how you reached that point and how they are complicit in it.

This is not about shirking responsibility, as they want you to believe. This is about reclaiming yourself

They ruined a part of my life and destroyed my relationships with some people, but at least I didn't lose myself, and I can rebuild my life and friendships now, even if it’s difficult.

Your life starts over the moment you leave them behind. Don't forget.