I will always love you so much, with or without me. 🎈🎈

We knew each other for more than 3 years and fell in love for more than two. It’s been more than a year now without my queen. It was a mutual agreement that we would have to drift apart. She traveled to follow her dreams. Letting her go was the hardest and right thing to do in my life, as I’m obsessed with her. There is nothing I want more than being with her. Over time, I had the hardest battle as I took my time to reflect deeper on the beauty of life around her. I reached out after a year, which was making me go back and forth. Am I in trouble for showing up to tell her that I have been loving her and always will? Not to kill myself knowing I ever had a chance to build my future with her. Or am I a walking mess that came back in her healing process to bring destruction?
Maybe she hates me for it. She is trying to fully move on and achieve her goals. It makes me happy to know she is following the things she wanted. I’m her admirer, supporter, and number one fan. She had the time for me, with formal communication telling me it was a beautiful experience that she learned a lot from, and its lessons. And it will always be special. The communication was bad from my end, as I will never stop loving her. It was confusing and unstable to speak that I still want her with me and love her enough to be better even if it’s not with me. The guilt is the only thing putting me down. My love for her is so pure and deep that I want her to be the happiest and have the best interest with me or without me. I’m praying with guilt to admit I might be wrong, but I don’t want to bring any sort of pain. Did I really fuck up?