I'm so tired of living like this

It's so hard being in a relationship with someone who has no self-control. Every time we fight, it turns physical. Imagine him grabbing me by the hair and throwing me around. Almost everything I own has been damaged because of our fights. There's a hole in my apartment door, my storage box is broken, the watch my mom gave me has a huge scratch, and the mattress I worked so hard to pay off in installments is covered in stains. Every fight leaves something else ruined.

On top of that, he doesn't contribute to the bills, and he doesn't even have the money to repair or replace the things he destroys. It's exhausting. The hardest part is that I can't fuckinb let go. I just want all of this to end, but I don't know how.