I have my dream life. But I want to die.

I had a very conventional life, I’ve achieved my dreams career wise (I’m a dental student), and I have everything going for me.

Except, I made a mistake. I met someone at 19 and fell in love, converted religions and married them behind my parents back without anyone knowing. Dumb series of choices.

Now, that marriage fell apart and I don’t know what religion I am, or what I believe. An identity crisis. Even if I resume my old life, as perfect as it was going, I will never be able to get married again because of my past (very insane in my community). I am also a person that struggles to hide anything because guilt consumes me alive.

So at this point, all I have left to do is die. My dumb choices at 19 screwed over the perfect life trajectory I was on. I can’t cope with that.