I fucking hate my mother

I had to go no contact with my mother yet again.. my uncle died and she kept disrespecting him and my aunt, after all they've done for her. She's also deadnaming my sibling and always ends up going back to her narcissistic ex.. when I lived with her.. she and her ex kept me away from any medical care and therapy and tried to tell me i wasn't bisexual and would call me retarded all the time. She got me a doll for Christmas, even though I'm too old for them.. she constantly puts me down..I could go on and on. Basically fuck you mom.. i hope you rot.