Fear of medical professionals due to Childhood abuse.

I have no idea how to get past this.

My whole life I have had issues with my feet, mainly ingrown toenails, I don't think they were ever cut right.

So I would always get in growns. My father used to do 'home surgeries ' on them. I don't know if he enjoyed it, I don't know if he genuinely thought it was right, or they just didn't want to risk questions being asked.

He uses to cut open the nail bed and pick at the skin/shards of nail, and then pour either alcohol or aftershave into the wounds. It was incredibly painful, I used to beg him to take me to a doctor but he would tell me he was doing exactly what they would do.

This was over 20 years ago, my feet are horrendous, I'm still suffering from the same issues but I'm too scared to go to the doctor to get it sorted 😪

What do I do?