What should I do? Don't judge pls

Recently I've had a neck surgery, the details don't matter, and my surgeon who's kinda funny looking because he has this resting bitch face (yk) that I have too. The main thing is him not being like sexy or hot but he looks young for a surgeon, but still, I wanna make out with him so badly, Ig cause he's my surgeon. I'm at home now and I'm going to the hospital on Thursday for a wound check and I don't know what should I do.