“Love comes when you’re not looking”

TO HELL WITH THAT I'm gonna be vulnerable for a moment but I honestly do not understand my own relationship with love itself. Because of how much they say that line to me I've accustomed myself to just not speak about wanting affection because it seems like everyone I know just makes it into some "moral of the story" BUT CANT A GIRL JUST EXPRESS HERSELF GEE KAREN YOURE ONE TO SAY THAT WHEN YOURE IN A PERFECTLY GOOD RELATIONSHIP (i love you karen i get where youre coming from). They say that when you arent looking thats when youll meet the love of your life well I CANT REALLY SHAKE AWAY THAT FEELING NOW CAN I it feels like I'm being performative but secretly I'm hoping that in every corner in every order or in every glance it might be the one. But then reality crashes down and I dunno man maybe its cause of my personality thats not feminine enough accompanied by my rough exterior, maybe its the way my crushes that have now become my friends tell me that I approached them in an
"friendly" manner thats why they never thought of me in that light. BUT MAYBE IM JUST ME WHO IN THIS BLEAK WORLD WANTS TO HAVE A PERSON THAT WONT COMPLETE ME BUT RATHER COMPLIMENT ME.