McDouble & Diet Coke

Sorry for the ramble.   
Humiliationship ended things recently and Im not handling it well. I was so hopeful and excited that I overlooked some (apparently) obvious signs that he wasn’t going to commit

I wish I was mad but Im just not. He explained and I understood. Im just so sad. I think we had a real connection growing. We had so much fun, we wanted the same things, I think we would have been a good couple, and we meshed well in each other’s lives. He just wasn’t emotionally available and I wish I would have realized that and stopped things before I was so emotionally invested. 

The only thing that does make me mad is that if he wasn’t certain about dating someone he didn’t have to fully bring me into his life or let me bring him into mine. It just makes things harder. I know it isn’t worth it to focus on the things that feel unfair or the questions I want to ask. It just doesn’t matter. 

It was a short relationship. I feel so stupid for not realizing what was happening, so pathetic for being this sad about it, and so embarrassed anytime my friends or family try to comfort me about it. 

I can’t sleep, I have a pit in my stomach all the time, and now I’m experiencing a pregnancy scare. I’m hoping it’s just the stress delaying my period but wouldn’t that just be the cherry on top? I have a lot going on in my life anyway and with this I feel like I need to sleep for a month

Feeling pathetic post situationship