Am I falling into a relapse?

It’s starting to consume my life again, every aspect. Every single thing I do has some tie back to eating or not and I don’t even understand how or why. Every day I feel the same body parts, not even consciously. I just catch myself doing it and am like “what tf am I doing rn”. Every time I move it’s “how many calories did that burn” or “should I just keep doing this till I get tired? Maybe it’ll count as a workout.” I went back to twt, just to see. My account is still there and so is all the people I used to talk to before I decided I needed to be healthier. Just.. waiting. Waiting for me to close my eyes and get sucked in all over again. My partner says I’m not eating enough, but I didn’t even notice a change in my eating. They say I seem more sad and tired. Like I’m spiraling again. What the actual fuck is happening to me? It feels new, but I’ve been here before. I have the desire to just track every single macro and lb in my life. I don’t even know if talking about it is worth it… thanks for reading if you did… sorry..