Newbie looking for some advice

Hello all who might read this, I hope you are having an amazing day :). I wanted to come here and ask a few questions to those who are more experienced than me.

I will say this is an advice mixed with a feelings post, just for context.

So first, I wanna start off by giving a small bit of background on myself. It was revealed to me that I age regress around two years ago when talking to a very good friend of mine who also age regresses. It wasn’t something that was obvious but I figured out it was just a part of me that exists, something within me that deeply wished to be softer, playful, cared for. After maybe a month or so of debating whether to actually make an effort to engage with this bit of myself, this friend decided to send me some agere gear. It genuinely made my heart flutter opening a package to see a lovely outfit among other things that could help me regress.

To keep a long story short, I really struggle with the mental side of things. Among the voice inside that wants to regress, there is another, much stronger voice that resents it, and suppresses it. It is a mixture of my religious upbringing, my internalized self-loathing, and a general fear of “What will others think?” Other than the friend who age regresses, there is one other person in the world who knows this side of me: my partner. And although they are incredibly supportive, I know it is a burden to them to have to deal with me like that. So ever since I figured out I regress, I have been unable to actually adopt the mental side of regression, as my own mind pushes it away.

So to cut to the chase, here are the questions I have:
- Is there any way that I could break past the mental barrier? Are there any tricks I can use to maybe slip into that mentality unknowingly? (I have tried hypnosis, but that didn’t work)
- Is it okay to ask my partner to engage with this side of me? They have said they are okay with it and will engage with me while regressed, but I just feel bad pulling them into it.
- If I do manage to slip into regression, how do I stay in? What do I do to keep myself from returning to normal adulting? Not meaning stay in forever, just long enough to actually enjoy it.

If you don’t feel like responding directly to the post, please feel free to dm me with any help you may have, and thank you for reading my wall of text. I hope you all have a lovely day <3.