A couple days in and I am honestly worried about how well it is going 😅

I just started on 30mg. I havent gotten a lot of sleep because of the insomnia but it is improving and regulating. Other than that and a high base-level nervous system arousal (i.e. situational anxiety) that is also improving, I have had no negative physical side effects and I have done more of my college coursework in the past two days than I was able to do in the past week because I could not focus AT all. I also have actually been able to get up at a decent time and STAY up for the whole day where I used to literally feel like I physically needed to just sleep constantly. I feel like I actually have some sort of motor now internally that is starting to kick on rather than my executive dysfunction guilt dragging my body out of bed just to still accomplish probably nothing substantial - and there is a chance what I DID accomplish wasnt what I set out to accomplish. I am still having difficulty staying like focused on one thing specifically but it is getting easier to bring my focus back to where it needs to be for longer periods at a time.

I also started lexapro a few months ago and already saw a lot of improvement in my mental health in terms of depression and pretty severe general anxiety. I am optimistic about being able to actually remove the hurdles that I have been struggling to get over for my whole life 🥹🥹🥹. Like I for once feel like I have just a LITTLE control over my brain oml.