HELP ME FIND THIS FIC AND MY LIFE IS YOURS

I don’t know if it got deleted or not. But basically either Demon feed audio (more likely her then the other option) or Micha Making Podfics read this on their podfic channel a while ago. I think it was Demon Feed though, because she deleted a LARGE number of episodes from her account. Anyway, the fanfic was a drarry fic. The only details I recall was these: Drarry, some amount of nsfw (that’s the only reason i would have been deleted from demon feeds channal), and a scene where they are both sitting by the lake at hogwarts (maybe an 8th year AU, i’m not posmotive) and Draco is showing Harry all these drawings he had done of Harry. Now this is where things get blurry. I can’t recall if this is the same fic or not, but i think there was a scene where Harry is awoke by Pansy bc Draco is very drunk/on something and he is either in the lake or trying to get into the lake, and Draco says something about how only Harry can make him stop or he was just saying Harry’s name, something like that. I also believe Draco gets sent away somewher, maybe because of drug/alcohal abuse or maybe it had something to do with him being sewersidal or maybe it had to do with his dark mark. Those are all the details I can remember. If anyone can tell me what this fanfic is called it would mean the WORLD to me. THANK YOUUUUUUUU