I Miss My Ex

I miss her so much, she was my first everything. She asked for space and I’m doing my best to respect that. I know she isn’t taking the break well. I want to help her so bad, I was the only person she really spoke to. So seeing her post so much about herself online hurts because I know she’s going through it. I want to be able to provide her the help she needs (as in recommending professional help). But that’s not my problem. I’ve been focusing on myself this past week. I do miss her deeply. She is still my best friend. I don’t know how I feel for her romantic wise. My anxiety has been telling me that she secretly despises me and that’s why she isn’t talking to me. That isn’t the case, she asks for space so that way we could work on ourselves. So that we weren’t so codependent on eachother for our happiness. I just wish she would text me right now. I’ve been having dreams where she reached out to me and it just hurts. The only time I’ve cried so far is because I don’t want her to hate me. She is still my best friend. I miss her a lot. Even though it’s been a week should I reach out again?