Major Milestone

I thought of sharing this here because this subreddit has helped me in ways I can’t even explain.

Weekends are hard for me. I’m used to finishing work at 1 p.m. on Fridays and then going straight to the dispensary in my neighborhood to get my usual, then smoking all weekend long. This past weekend was different. I was already a few days sober but feeling like all I wanted was weed. Friday at 1 p.m. came, and I tried to get my mind off it, so I took a long nap in the afternoon and woke up feeling rejuvenated. I was able to go back to sleep at 10 p.m. and woke up the next day at 10 a.m. It’s been years since I’ve slept that much. I usually get high and binge-watch TV or something until late at night—but not this time.

I was sober the whole weekend. Weed was always in the back of my mind, but I resisted it. I went for a run, rode my bike with my husband, and we had a blast. Sunday came, and I went to a friend’s house to watch the World Cup match—a very special one. There were a bunch of people, barbecue, a swimming pool, and of course, a lot of weed.

That’s when I realized this time was different than the other 324,432 times I tried to quit. A friend of mine was passing her joint around, and when it got to me, I said no. I SAID NO!!

THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED, GUYS. NEVER. Perfect weather, perfect situation for a nice joint—but I resisted. I have never been this proud of myself in my life. I saw my husband looking at me across the patio, and I could read his lips saying, “I’m so proud of you.” I cried when I got home.

I hope you guys know that this subreddit has been an incredible part of this journey. It’s just the beginning, but we’ll get there together. Thanks, friends!