Been on HRT journey and still not sold….

I am just a year shy of starting HRT and the last year has been well….not the best . I keep trying to push thru because I think this is good for me in the long run but I’m not so sure it is. My ferritin levels have plummeted leading to hair loss and extreme anxiety. My thyroid levels are out of whack too . I have been on same dosage for 7 years and just recently have had to increase it. I guess the worst though is my body has gone soft and I just look completely different. I was building some good muscle tone and was looking nice and lean but now my stomach is soft and I am much more curvy and well just much thicker. I like the sleep benefits of progesterone but nothing much beyond that. I still stay bloated and I worry that the estrogen is feeding my endometriosis . My periods are still bad unless I take naproxen for week or more around it and how good is that for me? Anyway, anyone else just feel like they felt better or looked better before??? Maybe after my iron infusion and thyroid levels are back to normal I will feel and look better but right now I’m struggling