lol I might kill myself today

I was having the worst day and I realised bitch I have money I could buy a but load of drugs go to a park and just chill out have a nice time and wait to overdose like omg what’s stopping me? Literally nothing like omg I might kill myself but it would haveeee to work or things will be SEVERELY AWKWARD like I can’t even start thinking of contingencies if it doesn’t work bc it has to work so I guess what drugs should I get and how muchhhhh I do tend to throw up when I take too much of anything how do I prevent throwing up so all the drugs stay inside and kill me lol….i do not want advice tips and tricks on how to take myself out only please and thank you!